WIP: Myself
Introduction
From 2023 to 2025, so many things happened in my life and career that I would never have imagined when I started. Curiosity drove me to contribute to open source and engage with the community, and the results went far beyond what I expected.
Looking Back
I don’t even know if my contributions really helped the community, but that was always the intention. The fun, the passion, the drive, that’s what kept me going. Working quietly in my corner, I just hoped some of it was useful to others.
A Turning Point
Recently, I hit a turning point. Something in my life (I won’t go into details) made me realize that if I keep pushing on the same track, I’m heading straight into the wall. It was the kind of wake-up call you can’t ignore.
I smoked for 11 years. If you know my age, you understand how critical that is. I quit abruptly, zero relapse so far. At the same time, I wanted to go back to sport. I even tried to re-register for competition, but medical clearance is pending, so I’m on hold for now. That was the last drop for me, the signal that something had to change, now.
Rebuilding
I’m still young, and I know I have time ahead of me. But that’s exactly why I need to do things properly now. Smoking has been a weight I’ve carried for years without even realizing it, and I’ve always been like this, carrying burdens until they break me. This time I want to drop it before it does.
So I’m putting my personal research and releases on pause. This should be temporary. I’ll still be around, I keep working, I’ll keep doing my job, but I need to redirect my energy into rebuilding myself first. Professional work continues unchanged; this only affects personal releases.
Releasing research has always been a thrill for me, but right now I have to think about something else. If I want to perform better in the long run, I need to strengthen the foundation: health, discipline, balance.
A Word to the Community
To the people in this field: I know how it is. In cyber, you feel like you have to grind endlessly to stay relevant, always chasing, always learning. But if you recognize yourself in some of the patterns above, please be careful. We don’t realize what this does to us over time, until it’s almost too late.
A big thank you to those who read this, and to those who have followed my work. I didn’t get much feedback, but I know some people were watching, and that was enough to keep me going.